I convinced my psychiatrist to let me switch back to Seroquel (100mg/day) from Zoloft (25mg/day) and Risperdal (1mg/day). I’m glad I switched back.
It was hard convincing my psychiatrist to let me switch back. She wanted to put me on a higher dose of Risperdal. I had to say “Switch me back to Seroquel, or I’m going to stop taking the drugs completely.”
I only switched to Risperdal+Zoloft because that’s what they gave me in the hospital. I did relapse while taking Seroquel, but maybe 100mg/day wasn’t enough? Psychiatrists only want to prescribe the same as what you’re already taking. I wonder if there’s some newer drug with a similar effect? Seroquel is generic now. Usually, when a drug goes generic, the drug corporations change the chemistry a little, get a new patent, produce fake research showing it’s better, and then market it as a new drug.
Unfortunately, I need a prescription to get the drugs. What I’d really like to do is try a different drug for 2 months each to see which ones work and have no negative side-effects. However, my psychiatrist isn’t going to do that. If Seroquel worked for me, there must be another drug that also works?
The “Seroquel partially cures color blindness” side effect is back. To me, that’s a strong indication that the drug is helping me. Maybe Seroquel fills the role of a missing vitamin? Almost all the food we it is processed and not fresh, so it’s possible that a key vitamin is missing from modern diets. When I’m under stress, I need more of that “missing vitamin”? I wonder if, at a higher dose, it would completely cure my color blindness? Maybe my body uses its limited resources elsewhere, so it cuts corners on color vision and spends the tiny amount of that “missing vitamin” on other things? 100mg/day is considered a “low” dose. Since I did get hospitalized while taking 100mg/day Seroquel, maybe I need more?
Risperdal+Zoloft had horrible side-effects. At night, I was waking up every 1.5 hours. It was horrible. I put up with it for awhile, but it got to the point where I was starting to stop sleeping at all.
It also messed up my bowel movements. Fortunately, that’s back to normal now.
I feel like all my senses are back to normal now. My sense of taste and smell is a lot better. The Risperdal+Zoloft really dulled my senses.
Also, I was only able to concentrate at 50-80% of capacity. I feel that my ability to think has returned. One example is high scores at computer games. I’m doing a lot better. I also can tell the color blindness side-effect, in certain games that depend on color. I’m still getting stuck on level 7-1 of Q*Bert due to not being able to make out the colors.
I feel like I’m getting a good night’s sleep for the first time in 6 months. That’s the only negative of Seroquel, that I’m sleeping 9-11 hours a day. I feel good otherwise, so it doesn’t bother me. It is amazing that I couldn’t stand Risperdal+Zoloft, but Seroquel I actually like.
I’ve changed my belief from “All psychiatric drugs are harmful!” to “Most psychiatric drugs are harmful!” I have a hard time believing that Risperdal+Zoloft helps anyone, given the bad negative side-effects I had. However, if other people feel those drugs help them, they should take them. If you’re taking a drug that has horrible side-effects, you have to push back and refuse to take it, try a different drug, or fire your doctor and find a better one.
I asked “Can the hospital make a list of the drugs I’ve already tried and didn’t like? If I relapse, can they give me a different drug rather than going back to the ones I already tried and couldn’t stand the side-effects?” The answer was “No! The hospital wants to make a quick buck and get you out of there as soon as possible. They’re going to give you the strongest drugs they can, to eliminate your symptoms and make you mostly stable, even if you’re so messed up that you can’t do anything else.”
Let’s see if my blogging motivation returns, now that I switched from Risperdal+Zoloft back to Seroquel!